The sky is limitless, I do not know where to start or to end.
Why is the sky so vast?
As if there was something underneath the sky.
A mystery not revealed.
I know I am not really alone...
Ah, gw baru menemukan fakta.. bahwa proposal skripsi yang udah diajuin ke departemen belum tentu diterima sama dosen pembimbing [bodohnya]. Padahal gw udah tenang-tenang aja tuh dan gak ada kepikiran ada hal buruk itu. Grrrr,, gimana dong ini?! Berarti gw harus nyari alternatif judul lain nih. Oh, mana si Bu DR. Haula Rosdiana lagi ke Eropa atas undangan United Nation merancang treaty UN Model [faktanya--> Dia pembimbing gw!!!]. Sial!! Si dosen yang pendidikannya tingkat tinggi [sangat tinggi sekali] itu bahkan udah membuat gw jeeper duluan sebelum mengkonsultasikan proposal skripsi gw ke dia dan juga udah sukses berat membuat gw rendah diri sampe mendelep ke dasar tanah [dan gak timbul-timbul lagi ke permukaan] karena terlalu khawatir judul gw di tolak. Oke, gw salah udah berburuk sangka sama dia.. tapi, tapi, dan tapi… temen gw sendiri aja yang notabenenya anak cumlaude [pembimbingnya sama kayak gw] ditolak mentah-mentah sama tuh dosen yang sekarang sedang terobsesi meraih predikat guru besar di Universitas Indonesia ini. Lah, gimana gw?? [gw bahkan gak cumlaude, maannnn!!! –oke, ini namanya membuka aib secara terang-terangan di dunia maya-]. Ampun deh ini, rasanya mimpi buruk banget, banget yang terlalu deh.. Aaarrghhh, gw bingung sebingung-bingungnya yang paling bingung yang terbingung yang pernah gw bingungkan seumur hidup gw yang selalu membingungkan ini.. [apa maksudnya?? Gw jadi bingung?!! –wah, minta di timpuk duit nih!!-].
Maksud gw, selain jadi bingung [keluar lagi deh tuh kata] gw juga sangat khawatir [kali ini sangat mendasar].. gimana klo gw gak lulus tepat waktu yah?? Ooooh, tidak.. gw TIDAK MAU!!! Kan mengerikan banget cong, pas lo tau faktanya temen-temen seperjuangan udah diwisuda dan lo masih terperangkap seperti orang yang sangat amat paling bodoh sedunia masih mengerjakan skripsi!!! [kasih tau gw apa lagi yang lebih buruk dari itu coba?]. Mana tambah biaya, umur makin tua pula.. apes banget daaahhh.. Hidup yang penuh nista rasanya [weits, ntar dulu, jangan ada yang tersinggung lho.. karena ini cuman pendapat dari seseorang yang sedang mengalami disfungsi otak yang sedang mengetik posting yang gak jelas]. Harapannya sih, gw bisa wisuda bareng-bareng sama temen seangkatan, trus foto-foto pake toga bareng di Balairung,nyanyi-nyayi bareng [soundtracknya Vitamin C - Graduation], nangis bareng [ungkapan bahagia yang gak bisa diungkapkan dengan kata-kata].. Waaaahhhh, apa gak mengharu biru tuh moment?!! Woi, sekali seumur hidup lho ini..!!!! Gak akan ada ulangannya lagi kaya program bola yang klo gak bisa nonton live tengah malam, ntar siangnya diputer lagi. Woooiii, ini bukan kayak SPMB yang punya kesempatan ngulang 3 kali. Gakkkk, man!! CUMAN SEKALI SEUMUR HIDUP. Oke, gw tau gak boleh berdoa dalam media dunia maya, tapi plisss sekali ini aja.. Semoga Tuhan mendengarkan harapan gw yang mau lulus tepat waktu [4 tahun aja deh, gak udah pake 3,5 tahun segala] dan memudahkan urusan gw dalam skripsi. Itu aja kok, Tuhan.. Plis, gak muluk-muluk kan yah? :D
Monday, Oct25' 2010 _ 5.43 PM Written by Desby Mian Berlianty Pasaribu
Here are some chats between two girls via facebook in the rainy and gloomy afternoon. Girl #1 felt so lonesome and turned on her notebook, and voila plugged the modem.. She typed “facebook.com” on google blank column.
Girl #2 just updated her status and the chit-chat went easily such the heat warms the ice.
Girl #2 status: “Go Ahead. Coz I don't Care.”
[Girl #1 didn’t know what has just crossed her mind, suddenly She really wanted to tell a story to someone and then She saw Girl #2’s status].
Girl #1 : I'm distracted like a bee in bonnet.. :(
I'm totally distressed when he said, "Dreams are over, give a faith that there are still another dreams." Girl #2, help me from heart destruction.. T____T
(30 minutes ago).
Girl #2 : Just pull yourself together and be STRONG!! Dun GIVE UP!!!
(26 minutes ago).
Girl #1 : Boneless tongue.. (25 minutes ago).
Girl #2 : Who is He btw?? ur dad or that guy? (25 minutes ago).
Girl #1 : The second one (25 minutes ago).
Girl #2 : Why he said such thing? (22 minutes ago)
Girl #1 : It's him. you know.. the guy that I ever told you before..
[not in the class of social at high school 6.. no, the previous one]. You, know I damn crush on him but now, he's already crushed on another one and replaced me..
(20 minutes ago).
Girl #2 : WTF!!?? He said those things to u?? soo MEAN!! T.T (18 minutes ago).
Girl #1 : Not directly, but I just saw his status..
I mean, it's been a year [or maybe more] since we broke up. I really dislike this situation.. Eeerrgh, and tomorrow i'm still having test!! I hate being tested but i have to.. (15 minutes).
Girl #1 : I asked him in Christmas eve at church, then God gave him. Marvelous! :D
(2 minutes ago).
Girl #2 : Wow~~ I didn't know about that..hehee~ yepp Marvelous!!
Take a good care of yourself k? Promise?? I dun wanna see my best friends to get hurt..so if anything happens, tell me k. I'm here for you.. (^_^) coz We're Best Friends..
(1 minutes ago).
Yeah, She knew [since the first] it won’t bring any solution at all but She felt so much released. She just needed a friend to listen to her burden heart at that time and she [Girl #2] would. Thanks anyway to spend a slightly time of yours.
Tuesday, Oct26' 2010 Written by Desby Mian Berlianty Pasaribu
Okay, I'm not gonna write quite long posting here.. just a quick one before I decide to bathe and bounce to campus facing my last day of midterm test. Well, let see what would happen to me today. Hmm.. I'm positively hoping that today gonna be an amazing ending for me and others too.
Jeez, I got a new message on facebook which came from my fella who's living in Bandung. and you know what.. hahahaa... I just made another stupid fatal mistake. I almost fuckin screwed the whole beautiful plans that we've made. Well, sorry anyway guys, it's just because I'm so excited. LOL. Ma bad, once again.. Uh-huh, I should have been smarter, right?
Wait, see the picure above? What you think anyway? A mad girl is holding a tax book!! I took it yesterday [again] after had Tax Policy test.. kinda out of mind but it's just for fun anyway. Hmmm.. honestly, I'm still looking good heh? Say it so.. It's the first book that I bought from my bucks the I earned by tutoring English. Expensive!!! It drained my pocket a lot. Eeeerrgghhh... don't know why I bought such thing?!
I and my comrades [Chui, Ajeng, Ayu, and Gaby] will have some adventures today.. Wait, for next good pictures and stories from me okay..
My objective on writing this story not because it’s October and a month ahead is already December. No, not at all.. I just arrived from bank [after had a huge catastrophe –midterm test-] and had lunch with my beloved sister, Caecilia. Suddenly, something is leading me to turn on my notebook and typing as well. The story about Santa comes immediately, haha.. Maybe because I’m completely alone in my dorm room and confused what should I do then.
Well, Is there anyone that can give me notice who doesn't know Santa Clause? I bet you can't!!
Everybody knows that man.. A big fat man who is always been wearing red wool suits [look more like winter coat] from head to toe with a pair of pitch black boots, his head is all over covered by gray hair, long bearded with the same tone and red nosed. As most people have known that Mr. Santa lives [somewhere] in north pole with thousands of gnomes as his worker to produce various sorts and kinds of toys to millions of children who have been acted and behaved good during a year [some kind of reward].
The man comes to each house by riding a flying sled which is pulled by seven magical reindeers to the whole world at Christmas Eve to give the presents and yelled out “Hoo.. Hoo.. Hooooo..” with shaking bells. When all children fall asleep, he sneaked in from the house chimney [Can you imagine how did he get into the chimney if you compare to his body size?? –hard to believe it though-] and put the Christmas presents under the Christmas tree in order to ease them to find theirs when tomorrow comes, the Christmas day. Wew, it must be a very damn busy night for an old man like him [I don’t know exactly his age, maybe much much older than a grandfather who’s living next to my dwelling and the very odd fact of Mr. Santa is he never dead.. Uuuh, long live huh?!]. Is he a human or what anyway? Have you ever wondered what kind of food he has eaten because he still looks very strong?? How many children he has? What’s his wife name? [haha.. Mrs. Santa –cool-] And what is he doing during January to December 23rd?? Where does he get money to produce the toys and to pay the gnomes? Is there a hospital in north pole? I mean how Mr. Santa recovered from his illness anyway? Is Mr. Santa’s dwelling detected by satellite and why does his dwelling still become a huge mystery ever in history? How does he know to distinguish the good or bad children from any part of the earth? How? How? and How? and about the magical reindeers.. [Oh, don’t wanna cogitate upon them –I’m going to be so insane of these stuffs-] Hahaha.. Those are my silly thoughts!! You and I know that, *Yes, let say -He’s just a folktale, a legend, nonsense, never really exist-
But, you may have not known what I believe in… I used to forsooth believe in his existence. Indeed. I mean, how could you differ what’s real and fiction when you were a lil’ kid while all media were showing a merciful, gracious-faced, and good-hearted man in completely all red allotting presents to children? All media were started to expose his images in early December such as movies, advertisements, street banners, video carols, Christmas ornaments, stores and even churches!! All, all, all, no exception.. -Jeez, please!!- They call those as spirit of Christmas. Huahaha, for me it such a funny statement!! Well, it’s okay anyway.. I’m not gonna blame them but, heeeyyy… I’m living in a tropical country which there will be no snow in Christmas or December [what's the correlation huh?].
Hmmm, in my opinion the biggest core which affect me most in believing that ‘Man’ was movies.. -_-“
Of course, definitely!! You know, when December comes all the television channels are ready broadcasting Christmas movies [I named them –fooling kid movies-] because they’re fooling me with an imaginary figure [a pure-minded girl has officially infected!!] It’s like a bee in a bonnet because I started to make a wish on Santa [not to God.. hooo.. really go insane!!!]. Until, I did something –very stupid- It was when I watched ‘a fooling kid movie’ and there was a scene where a lil’ boy about 9 years old wrote a letter to Mr. Santa asked to send him a toy. After that the boy poured some pen-ink on the envelope to write an address
“To: Mr. Santa Clause, North Pole 19420.”
Believe me or not, I imitated what just he did!! I took a piece of plain white paper [just after the movie had over] and began to write in English [totally such a mess because the sentences had no correct structure as English standard sentence required.. Yeah, Be understanding the situation of 10 years old girl..!! It was when I was at 5th year in elementary school]. After I had finished writing a damn asinine letter and put it in the white envelope, I begged Mommy to mail it to North Pole as has written on it [I insisted her, maybe because she looked at me enigmatically –at the time, I didn’t know what it mean was-]. All I desired was having it mailed and I shall get a new roller blade [that was what I asked to Mr. Santa]. On the day after, Mommy gave a receipt as a proof that she has sent it to north pole [and then Momma told me that the clerk was laughing at her when he read my ugly hand written on the envelope “North Pole” –Sorry, Momma.. I care zero about that-].
Waited, waited, and waited… Santa was never showed up his face to give my present until Christmas over.. I was totally sad, very sad.. He disappointed me!!! But [perhaps] I thought I wasn’t been good enough to have such present from Santa.. [fool young-girl]. I never have my new roller blade.. never!! And I started to forget my gloom, It’s already [another] a new year and when December comes again, [believe me or not –again-]. I made the same letter to Mr. Santa [still with the same address..], that year I asked for a skate board [a skate board for girl?? I was really very out of mind!!!] and had my Momma mailed it –just like what I did last year- [for the second time, Momma gave me a mail receipt and told the same story about "the laughing damn clerk" –when I read how much it cost, was IDR 27.500 –Eeerrggh.. so expensive!!!- It was in 2000 [Gosh!! They’re sucking my Momma’s bucks!!]. Because Momma mailed it via express and the postman –the clerk- said it will be arrived in three days].
At first, I felt like it was such a fresh air that struck my face –sign of good hope!!- Again and again!!! I waited, waited, and waited until Christmas over and December also ended!! “Huuuhh, what’s wrong with me?? I thought I have been good enough during this year!!” [It crossed my mind again]. Momma knew what her daughter despondent of, so she started to advise me on my 3rd attempt in the next year [wow, still in spirit of Christmas huh? Or spirit of Santa’s present?!! –probably the second one-]. Since she advised me that Santa was only folklore, an imaginary European figure on behalf of persuading children to have good manner, I turned not to believe in him anymore!!! Never!!
